Pakistani designer Feeha Jamshed took it to Instagram few days before to talk about her life-changing hard days and illness with the world.
Feeha Jamshed started with it, that the post is close to her heart and that many people didn’t know what was happening with her.
“Many of you didn’t know what was happening with me, I wouldn’t blame you I didn’t understand what had happened with me till recently,” the designer wrote.
She goes on telling that how three years ago, it all started, “3 years ago, I started lose control over my body. I had Trigeminal Nueralgia, after a series of procedures it got under control.”
Feeha thought that it was end of her worries but that was just a sweet break and not long after her lower part of the body, mainly hip and lower back started to give away.
“I was going through these unexplainable excruciating pain, that had no diagnosis, 1 MRI to another and juggling like a ball between the best doctors this country had to offer no one had an explanation to these pains,” Feeha Jamshed further wrote.
She was then unable to walk and started limping on her left leg.
“Since I have been a workaholic for the past 10 years, working is what I knew best. I stopped taking medication that slowed me down. And slowing down meant I was a ZOMBIE,” Feeha apprised in her Instagram post.
During her illness, she took every medication that pharma had to offer and accroding to the designer, out of those medications, steroids were the real killer, so this meant that she had to take anti depressants too.
“Decided to go cold turkey because I couldn’t let my work suffer. The only thing that kept me going was work. And that too became my healths downfall,” the workaholic lady added.
However, that limp consequently led her to be on the wheelchair for a long time of eight months.
“Now my battle was not only at work but inside me. My mind. I couldn’t let that go out of my control,” she wrote.
Feeha Jamshed further opened up about the dark days of her life and how she managed to go through them with courage and valour.
“There were some very very dark days for me. In order to win the battle I had to SURRENDER first. Surrender to everything that didn’t make sense, surrender to what the reality was, surrender to my negative thoughts in order to rise from it.” – Feeha
However, things didn’t end there for the courageous designer and she has to fight with something else too.
As Feeha stated, “I still didn’t have a diagnosis and Now I had to fight the biggest fight of my life with myself FOR myself. I have AUTO-IMMUNE DEGENERATION. There is no cure for my hip joint but my spine is manageable.”
The dauntless woman said that her this post is an appreciation to how far she has came. “From a wheel chair to a stick to dancing. As long as my good days are more than the bad ones I’m winning each moment.” – Feeha Jamshed
Feeha ended her post by thanking different people in her life and wrote further to end, “…Lastly the person I need to thank after God is MYSELF. I couldn’t have done it without ME.”
However, the courageous designer has gone through some really hard days of her life and we wish all the happiness, good luck, ease and speedy recovery to her. More power to you girl.